Section 10:Lines of 《K》--Earnestly attempt to recognize
(1) One extreme line of 《K》--Our/my volition or will to habit-free recognition
However, as much as(?) heading for this, still I'm not satisfied. Because I've got to be(It's me that should be) made care about my recall. Otherwise, (Or else,) I'll never get out of the habit of agreement to or relying upon those opinions.
However, very probable is the will (willpower) or volition changed to quite the
opposite direction, and by the willpower, it should not any longer that, evil habits & wrong custom warp/distort my judgment from the right perception of real things. In this way, I devote myself only to the real things that should be recognized (exclusively).
(2) The moderate line of 《K》--I deceive and bring myself to mistakes or errors.
However, as much as(?) heading for this, still I'm not satisfied. 'Cause (many)
opinions have run back constantly and been the rule in me habitually, and then, even they've been almost against my will & wishes.
As far as (so far as) I assume/suppose, in fact, it's as much as about the true things, too. That is, as just now pointed out, it should pretty much reasonable to believe those opinions, than to deny them. Thus, even if I act, it would not makes so bad.
So I deceive myself and, finally, the weight of prejudice has got just equally on both sides, they're to believe and to deny. I know that, in this case, it has never been to involve danger & risks or to result in mistakes & errors from the prejudgement (from prejudging). Then, I'm devoted to these real things, that I need not put into action now of all moments.
(3) The other extreme line of 《K》--Credulously, I too ready to believe. / I exacerbate my distrust.
However, as much as(?) heading for this, still I'm not satisfied. Because I become credulous, due to (many) opinions intertwisted each other & occupying me. These opinions have been a habit, as if used long, or as if they've acquired their rights familiarly.
However, I've come to have the opinion of what's suspicious in some way, then, for a while I'm gonna dare (to) suppose that all of these opinions as a habit are false & just imagined. But no matter how anyone makes me distrust, it's impossible that I grow the distrust (increasingly) too far by myself.
produced & draft by K. masamix as the SHYNAMITES/La CHENAMITOJ